Day 31 - Physical Fatigue

So my experience thus far sleeping 6 hours per night is as follows.

I tend to have a muscular-achiness or discomfort rather throughout my body but predominately in my forearms and mid back and thighs throughout the day which intensifies in the evenings and at night before bed.  I also feel fatigued slightly off and on throughout the day.  I feel super tired in the mornings, but so long as I can remain in breath and not dwell on it, I ‘pull through’ after about 30 minutes and feel awake enough to function properly throughout the day.  However, after about 5 or 6 days, I start to feel fatigued throughout the day and wind-up usually falling asleep early without being able to concentrate for a few hours beforehand and then sleep 8 to 10 hours.

So, I have noticed that I am able to function well overall on 6 hours of sleep per night for most of the week until all this starts ‘catching up’ with me as described above.  Even though I breathe through and stop the thoughts and beliefs of ‘tiredness’, I seem to really be experiencing tiredness in my body – like feeling it literally (as described above).  This lends to upholding my belief that I cannot sleep less than 8 hours, however I am doing my best to push through.

Maybe there is something else going on here that I am not considering that is contributing to this feeling/achiness as described above.  Perhaps sitting around all day (as I do this working on a computer) and also for some-reason the idea of boredom or being slightly bored throughout the day also comes to mind, but I cannot seem to put it together at this time as to how this would factor in.

 

I feel a little strange doing self-forgiveness on the way I physically feel, or at least experience myself to physically feel, as I am experiencing a body-feeling sensation of fatigue or discomfort rather in my forearm muscles, thighs, and mid-back in the form of achiness (slight) were-in I feel really good doing mini-stretches throughout the day as a form of relief. 

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel tired.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am tired because I have not slept 8 hours.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I have to catch-up on sleep.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the feeling of being tired.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the feeling of fatigue because of my belief that I need 8 hours of sleep.

 

At this time, I just want to get what I can out on this as a point to work through over time.