Day 128 – SF on more Ego Points

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react with thoughts 'that I cannot let this go' when and as I hear someone speaking 'conventional wisdom' on a topic.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed msyelf to separate myself from others as 'superior' to them when it is that I believe that I am speaking the 'truth' of a matter.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have the need to be right.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have to prove that I am right to other's who I see as wrong.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become offended at people who hold erroneous belief systems about vaccines and fukishima, as if proper knowledge will do anything to chnge this phenomena. And within this, I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that disasters like vaccines and fukishima exist as reflections of what I accept and allow within my own mind and thus the only 'solution' is that I change myself into the image and likeness of life, of the physical, as the breath, here – and then walk the corrective application both as myself and with others doing the same until this world is changed, breath-by-breath into one that is best for all.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that trying to 'change' people's erroneous 'opinions' on topics such as vaccines and fukishima will not solve the issues at hand because within doing this, one is not 'solving' the issues within self that are responsible for the creation and manifestation of these 'issues' in the first place. And within that, I forgive myself that within the point of trying to prove to others the reality of these things, I am only creating and reinforcing my very own ego and argumentative personalities thus actually contributing to the very problems that I am arguing about.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to allow my ego to consume me.

I forgive myself that I have accetped and allowed myself to have certain 'trigger' points where I will go into a personality, of my ego, in order to 'prove a point' or 'win a debate' in order to justify myself to myself in my existance as a mind-consciousness system.

I forgive myself that I haave accepted and allowed myself to delude myself that it is acceptable to go into personlity and character reactions in order to defend certain points of view that I have given high value to – as if I am standing up for all the weak children out there who are getting vaccinated or all the poor fuckers out there gettting radiated – and therefore it is 'ok' to go into and enhance my egoic 'nature' on these points.

I forgive myself that I have refused to see, realize, and understand that the only person that I can change is myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to win debates.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect fear to the thought that 'oh no, I hope they are not perceiving that I am incorrect on this topic or that I may be wrong or a fool.'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to try to manage other's perceptions and judgements of me by doing everything that I can to 'prove' my point.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see myself as superior to others because of my participation in the throught that 'I have taken the time to do my research and get educated on these important matters.'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hold imaginary discussions and debates in my mind for the sole-purpose of entertaining myself with myself proving myself right within my own imagination.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to seprate myself from others and all that is here within going into my mind and my imagination where I am proving myself to be right to others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have to be seen as right.

I forgive myself that I have accpeted and allowed myself to separate myself from others within worrying about what they think of me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed msyelf to connect fear to the thought that 'others may think that I am wrong'.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have created a shock-and-awe attack personality system where I try to shock-and-awe my 'oppenents' into seeing things my way, when I in fact shock-and-awe only causes reactions in others where they go further into their ego as a defense mechanism.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define people with alternate viewpoints as my opponents.

I forgive myslelf that I have not allowed myself to realize that by defining others as my opponents, that within that I am separating them from me as them, and then giving permission to destroy them and their mind-consciousness system placement within the point of competition, winning, and establishing self as the superior mind-consciousness system placement.

I forgive msyelf that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from others through debate and the challenging of other's viewpoints.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into all kinds of reactions within accepting and allowing thoughts and thought patterns to energize within my mind when I hear or read something from someone that I disagree with.

I forgive myself that I have accpted and allowed myself to react within either creating a new personality in an instant or energizing / activating an existing personlity as a reaction to hearing words or reading words that are saying something that I disagree with.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give permission and justify myself to activate my ego / personlities in order to defend certain points of view within the point that I am 'sticking up for the helpless children', like regarding the point of vaccines.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that every reaction that I allow is like keeping me stuck further into my mind as I will have to self-forgive that point once again in the future – which stretches out my process and makes it that much more difficult.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that it matters what others think of me and about these topics of vaccines and other issues, as if what others think will actually change anything. And within that, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to perpetuate the illusion of separation from others as me within the point of debating them, and reacting with all kinds of thoughts, feelings, and emotions to their words and 'positions' instead of breathing and looking into self as to why this world and everyone here exists as it does.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame others for the world and all the 'atrocities' as they exist as it exists now within the point of projecting my anger and frustration at others for being wrong about how things really work, when in reality I am angry at myself for not standing up for life, for not living here, for not breathing and then manfifesting the consequences that is the world as it exists now.