Day 137 – Corrective Application on 'Expecting the World to Change'

I commit myself to let the expectation that the 'world should change' go as I see, realize, and understand that expectations come from beliefs and ideas that I create within and as myself in the pictures of my own mind without physically walking these ideas and beliefs to see if they practically are applicable or are a reflection of what is actually physically here.

I commit myself to see, realize, and understand that accepting and allowing myself to hold this expectation that 'the world should change', and any expectation, is selfish in nature because as long as I am holding onto ideas and beliefs that I expect to manifest without considering and walking the practicality of how and idea or belief will be able to manifest within the physical, then I am actually holding these ideas and beliefs because they give me a personal gratification – and that is where the desire to have these ideas and beliefs fulfilled comes in – where in reality I want to be gratified by seeing the fulfillment of these pictures in my mind – thus my expectations represent my secret desires for my own personal gratification within and as my own mind.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that the expectations that I hold are actually secret desires to have the pictures, images, ideas, and beliefs in my mind fulfilled for my own personal gratification.

When and as I see myself criticizing and blaming others that are not 'living up to' or 'fulfilling' my expectation of what it would look like if one where here to 'change the world to one that is best for all' or 'really care about life' or 'see the world for what it really is', I commit myself to slow down and see, realize, and understand that I had created an experience of disappointment within and as myself where my expectations were not met – when it was I that created the ideas and beliefs as pictures in my mind, in the first place, and now that they are not manifesting so that I can have my own personal gratification of seeing this fulfilled - I am blaming others and within that blame becoming angry, frustrated, judgmental and justifying this within the point of superiority within the point of 'I have the right to be this way because I have the 'right' ideas and beliefs'.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a huge mind-fuck for myself by creating ideas and beliefs as picture presentations in my own mind, then expecting them to be fulfilled and then become disappointed when the are not, and then blaming others for this, and then within that blame, justifying anger, frustration and the polarity of superiority/inferiority to exist within me – when all the while, I am doing nothing more than fulfilling my own secret desires - that are cloaked in the image of being the 'good-guy' – to just participate in the energy and friction of my mind.

I commit myself to see the mind for what it is – an energy creating devise of enslavement – and thus stop participating in the energy of my mind by investigating my ideas, beliefs, and expectations so that I can see them for what they are so as to not fall for the traps that I set for myself within my secret desires to participate in the energy of my mind.

I commit myself to investigating my desires so that I can stop them and not be influenced and directed by secret desires – because through investigating my desires I will no longer have secret desires directing me as all will be revealed.

When and as I see myself going into the energy of expecting others to fulfill my ideas and expectations of any kind, I stop and I breathe.

And thus I commit myself to slowing myself down through breathing and bring myself physically 'here' so as to stop.