Wednesday, February 26, 2014

Day 139 – SF on The 'I've Gotta Do Something Else' Character

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create, participate in, and hold the idea and belief that 'I can only do something for so long'.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become possessed by the 'I've gotta do something else' character, that I created as a consequence of my participation in the idea and belief that 'I can only do something for so long', where I have no self will and am thus directed by the energy / feeling of this character.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that when energy as a feeling directs me as who I am, that I am not present as the moment as all that I have become is the embodiment of that energy as a feeling.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be directed by the energy as a feeling, within and as myself, of and as the 'I gotta do something else' character that I step into, where the energy as a feeling takes over and then I say 'I gotta do something else', 'I cannot do the same thing for too long', 'I am bored', 'this does not feel right' – where I am no longer directing who I am within and as the moment, but am directed by this energy which I have become to believe is me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to trust this energy / feeling to such an extent that I would believe that this feeling / energy / possession is me, is who I really am, and then would react to it as if it were real, as if it were real independent of my own particiaption within and as it

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that when I am following an energy as a feeling within and as myself I am being directed by a pre-programmed design that I have created and allowed to exist within and as myself which is an automated system that can be terminated like any program.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create the 'I've gotta do something else character' within and as myself as a consequence to my creation of the belief / idea that there is a 'limit to how long I can do the same task' and through this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to limit myself to how long I can do the same thing thus limiting myself to how effective I can be and become if I were to allow myself to sit and complete a task from start to finish without any mind-possessions pulling me away from the task. Within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that I was the one that had decided to limit myself within and as this belief where I would create a physical resistance as a feeling to 'get up and go do something else' to the extent where I would even start to feel fidgety and physically uncomfortable when I am in a situation where I believe I am unable to sit and complete a task because I have been doing it for 'too' long.



To be continued...

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