Day 131 - SF on the Perfect Driving Experience

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hold expectations of the 'perfect driving experience' in my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become angry and upset at those how 'get in my way' of my experiencing the 'perfect driving experience'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to expect everyone to see fit to drive the way that I drive.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge driving the speed limit or slower than the speed limit as 'wrong' and and judge those who drive slowly as 'inconsiderate'.

I forgive myself that I have accpeted and allowed myself to hold an idea in my head of 'how I would like to expereince myself when I drive'

I forgive myself that I have accpeted and allowed myself to believe that I am 'right' about my ideas about how everyone should drive – and that within that I forgive myself that I have accpeted and allowed msyelf to believe that 'I have the right' to experience driving the way the I expect to based on my ideas.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I deserve the right to expereince driving based on the ideas that exist about it in my mind. And within that, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that others are infringing on my right to be able to drive that way that I want to.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to expect others to konw how it is that we all should drive, and within that I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that those who drive outside of this idea that hold in my mind, are doing so on purpose with intent, and are therefore assholes.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to step into the blame character when I perceive that something is 'wrong' wtihin my driving experience, where I chose to blame antoher driver, as to why I am not having my 'ideal' driving experience. Within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create an idea of what it is that I would like to experience and thus I would create and an expectation within and as myself where I would expect other drivies to give me this expereince the way that I had designed it wihtin and as myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to build ideas within my mind where I have specific pictures, presentations, and definitions of the 'perfect driving experience' that are charged with positive energy; and in this, where I would create the desire within and as myself to experience these picture presentations and definitions of the perfect driving experience. And within this, I forgive myself that I have accpeted and allowed myself to expect the picture presentation / definition of the perfect driving experience that exists within and as my own mind to play out as an actual experience within my physical world - and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to, when these pictures and definitions as ideas within and as my mind do not play out in the same way that they are defined within and as my mind, become disappointed, and then angry, frustrated, tense, and reactive within and as myself because these expereinces has not manfiested within my physical world

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hold the belief within and as myself that I have the 'right' to expereince these definitions and pictures and ideas that I have created within and as my own mind in separation from all that is physically here, and then as a consequence of my having this 'right', I go into blaming the other drivers that they did not give me this experience, or that they got in the way of giving me the experiences of these ideas as pictures and definitions that I had created within and as my own mind.

To be continued.