Day 140 – CA on The 'I've Gotta Do Something Else' Character

I commit myself to not accept and allow the 'I can only do this for so long character' to exist within and as me as I have seen, realized, and understood that this character was created by me through my participation in the belief, that I created, that 'I can only do the same thing for so long' and within that belief, I have created a limit, thus limiting myself, to how long I can do something before I go into the emotional / energetic experience of the 'I can only do this for so long character' that I scripted myself, that directs me and that I follow as a god over me, over life.

When and as I see myself going into the experience as an energy that 'I must do something else because have reached my limit', I stop and I breathe. I do not accept and allow myself to go into the experience as an energy that directs me and tells me what to do. Thus, I commit myself to stopping myself and breathing the moment that I see this energy / experience arise until I am clear, and then from a practical best-for-all perspective I direct me to do what is most affective without any regard for energy or feelings or beliefs that as these are of self-interest and don't support life as all as one as equal.

I commit myself to examine my beliefs and how they cause and create energy reactions and experiences as a consequence – and how withing holding beliefs, I become directed by them and a servant to them as they and the energetic outflows that direct me become my god.

When and as I see myself participating in ideas and beliefs – in other words when thoughts about things or myself come up that I cannot verify in physical reality and are not basic math, like 1 + 1 = 2, then I thus commit myself to release myself from the ideas and beliefs that I hold that are directing me through the energy as a feeling / experience they create as consequential outflow – through self-investigation, self-forgiveness, and corrective application.

When and as I see myself validating the experience as a feeling that is created through my beliefs and ideas that I hold by defining myself within this feeling / experience as 'being bored' or 'not feeling right' – I stop and I breathe. I do not accept and allow myself to validate the energy as a feeling that is a consequential outflow of ideas and beliefs that I hold by defining myself as bored as if this entire experience is real independent of my participation in my own mind. And thus, I commit myself to deleting these thoughts and self-definitions as backchat that come up, as the come up, by simply breathing and reminding myself that I am right here and that I am the director of my life and of my experience – that I choose, and that I choose life and to live free of any energy experience directing me as my god.