Day 160 – The Negative Experience Drives us All, Part III

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to always be driven to create a positive experience of myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place value in positive experiences and feeling good.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that we are here to have positive experiences.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make decisions based on how I feel about things.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be manipulated by others or television commercials into making decisions based upon how someone has made me feel because of their voice intonations, words, pace of speech, pictures they portrayed within their words, and who they are within the system, instead of making decision based on common sense and consequential outflows. 

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize and understand that by chasing after positive experiences I thus create a negative experience of myself as consequence that is always the constant where the positive is only short lived.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to suppress the negative with the positive, instead of just simply breathing and facing the negative so that I can end the negative experience of myself once and for all within aligning myself within and as the physical and equal and one living where I am always here – where my experience of myself is constant and stable and not driven by energy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be driven by energy.

When and as I see myself rating my energy experience of myself where I am judging myself to be bored, or uneasy, or unsatisfied – where I believe that I need something more and then go into the desire to do something that will make me feel better / feel excited / feel more positive, I stop and I breathe, because I see, realize, and understand that this is just an energy game of the mind that I play with myself to manage and control the experience of myself where the experience of myself is the only thing that matters in spite of everyone else.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to only be concerned with how I feel and then be possessed with finding ways to make me feel better in-spite of the consequences that others may suffer / in-spite of everyone.

And thus, I commit myself to stop and breathe, when and as I see myself go into this, and bring myself back into my body through breathing and remaining here.  And then I commit myself to facing the negative so that I can stop my participation within the negative, and then facing my desires so that I can stop my desires and live here within each and every breath in need of nothing because my experience of myself is stable and constant.