I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be in a competition with others for status and supremacy wherein my self-confidence is derived by where I believe that I 'stack-up' in comparison to whom I am talking to or doing business with within which I am confident around others that I have judged to be equal or less than me within and as this system, and I lack self-confidence around those that I have judged to be greater than me within and as this system.
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize,
and understand that my judging others shows me a point of competition
with others that I am engaging in where I am always stacking myself
up against others comparing and judging my traits and accomplishments
of which I am insecure about my traits and accomplishments.I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from others as me within the point of being insecure about my personality traits and personal accomplishments.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to always be in competition where I am judging and comparing who is better, more together, superior, and attractive all on a sliding scale, whenever I am in social situations and am in the presence of others. Within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to derive a sense of self-confidence / self-courage when and as I see myself as equal to or greater than those of whom I am in the presence of. Within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into different personality designs based upon how I stack-up in comparison to others that I am in the presence of – wherein when I am in the presence of others that I see myself as inferior to, I go into the suppression character / personality where I dare not speak too much and say something stupid, and when and as I am in the presence of others that I see myself as equal to, I speak as an equal – wherein I go into my most comfortable personality designs; and when an as I see myself in the presence of others that I see myself as superior to, I speak and conduct myself as superior wherein I will test my new personality designs to see if they are well received.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see myself as inferior or superior to others for any reason and also as a reaction to the way that I have compared myself to and judged others as in separation of me as them.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to always be going into the comparison and judgment characters when I am in the presence of others.
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that the point of competition with others shows me that I am not secure with myself and not living within and as an equal and one starting point.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge women and men as good-looking, average-looking, and then not-so-good-looking – all on a sliding scale, and then react towards them within the point of going into different characters and personalities based upon how I have judged them in separation of myself.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel insecure about myself and then suppress myself when and as I see myself as less physically attractive than others.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into the self-suppression character when and as I am in the presence of men and women, especially men, that I have judged to be more successful than me through comparison where I compare how well they are doing in their business, who financially free they are, and how much they can buy.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be intimidated by men who have very outgoing and 'happy' personalities, and within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into the self-suppression character when in their presence so as to not say something stupid. Within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to always be competing for who has the best personality and within this point of competition – when and as I perceive myself to be in the presence of a 'better' personality, I become intimidated and then suppress my 'personality' so that no one can see that it is 'inferior' to the person of whom I have judged to have a superior personality.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to interact with others from the starting point of the competition, judgment, comparison, and suppression characters wherein I change who I am based on how I have 'sized' everyone up in comparison to myself, so that I can have the best result socially. Within this, I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that this entire social interaction that I participate in is of self-interest – where I am only self-interested in getting what I want from others where in I am in a constant state of either fear or hope – where I fear being rejected and then go into self-suppression OR I hope that I will be accepted and either am in self-suppression or self-'expression' depending on how I have judged others in comparison to me.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge successful men as shallow and self-consumed because this makes me feel better about myself being not as successful as I believe that I should be at this time in my life. Within this, I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that when I compare others to myself and see them as more successful to me and then judge them to be shallow and self-consumed – this judgment is placed on them so that I can cover-up my own feelings of inadequacy and failure that I have not dealt with within and as myself.
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