Day 185 – Real Change, Living Here as the Physical

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe the thought and idea that 'I would not be able to enjoy myself without the participation within and as my own mind and the various personalities and characters that are already per-programmed within and as my mind'.

Thus, when and as I see myself going into the desire to participate within and as the characters and personalities that exist within and as my mind, and even the fear of not having that which I desire where I just remain here, I stop and I breathe because I see, realize, and understand that there is nothing to fear about remaining here within and as the breath and also that my desires to participate within and as the energy of my mind will only lead me into further enslavement to within and as my mind as this activates the pre-programmed nature of the mind which strengthens the bonds of the energy that control and direct me.

Thus, I commit myself to remain here and breathe through the desires to participate in my mind and breathe through the fears that come up to remain here and live without the characters and personalities that exist within my own mind.

I commit myself to breathe and remain here and to move around in my physical body, even laugh if necessary to pull me out of the mind and to right here within and as the physical.

I see, realize, and understand that I am not the mind.

I see, realize, and understand that my fear of living without the mind is a delusion.

I see, realize, and understand that I am not the thoughts, personalities and characters that exist within and as my mind.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that when I am not here as the directive principle of me in every breath that I open the door to be controlled by the memories that exist within and as my mind that I accepted and allowed to enter in to my mind without any directive awareness where I then attach emotions and feelings to these memories that then are able to control and direct me whenever these memories are accessed.

Thus, I commit myself to remain here and breathe throughout the course of my life in every moment so as to be here as the director of me where I do not accept and allow myself to program my mind with memories that have emotional and feelings energy charges associated with them that can then direct me without my knowing.

I commit myself to assist myself to remain here and breathe with total self-awareness by directing myself to write myself out on a daily basis, or as close to a daily basis as physically possible and as time permits within and as my day considering all of the things I must do for my own physical survival within and as this system.

I commit myself to assist myself to be the directive principle of me by speaking self-forgiveness in the moment that I see a thought pop-up that I recognize as a thought so that I can stop myself from following that thought into the activation of characters and personalities within and as my mind.

I commit myself to remain here and breathe when and as I see a thought emerge into and as my mind.

I commit myself to stopping my fear of remaining here and living without the mind through more writings and self-application on this point.