Day 189 – Stopping My thoughts / My 'Solve It Now' Character, part 2

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be captivated by the energy of the thoughts, feelings, and emotions that run through my mind when and as I participate in them, instead of standing right here within and as the breath, as the physical from where I redirect my awareness to focus upon and design a real-world solution through asking questions to myself about that which I face so that I can then place real-world physical solutions it into physical application.

When and as I see myself reacting in fear to the idea that 'not thinking, contemplating, and imagining a solution over and over again to that which I face and fear happening to me could be detrimental to me' – I stop and I breathe and do not accept and allow myself to react in fear to this idea, nor do I accept and allow myself to appease this fear within giving in to my mind, because I see, realize, and understand that this fear is not doing me any good and that appeasement of this fear only validates this fear and places this fear as the director of me.

Thus I commit myself to stop myself from going into this fear of not thinking in the moment that it arises through taking a deep breathe and saying out loud 'I am not this fear', 'I am the director of me, not this fear', 'I stop this fear', 'this fear is not real'. I do not accept and allow myself to participate or appease this fear in any way whatsoever through speaking these words and breathing so as to remain here within and as the physical as the director of me until I am clear.

Then, from this point, I direct myself to ask myself question about the situation at hand so as to consider if it is even worth further investigation, or if I have already found a solution – and if that what I have feared requires more consideration I then direct myself to sort it through asking myself questions; otherwise, I direct myself to completely clear my mind and breathe and remain here of no fear.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the thought that 'there could be more angles / solutions to consider'- where I actually fear that I may have not considered all the possible solutions and thus am exposing myself to potential harm.'

Again, when and as I see myself reacting in fear to the thought that there 'could be more angles / solutions to consider' wherein I create / manifest within and as myself the desire to go into my mind and think of all sorts of solutions over and over and over again, I stop and I breathe because I do not accept and allow myself to react in fear to the fact that there could be more solutions that I have not considered, and I do not accept and allow myself to participate in the desire to go into my mind so that I can appease this fear. I see, realize, and understand that there are practical considerations here that may merit using my mind to sort out and find a real-world / physical solution, but after I have done so, then that is it. I see, realize, and understand that participating in my mind any further is not necessary and does nothing to help resolve the situation.

Thus I commit myself to, when and as I see myself going into the thought that 'there could be more angles / solutions to consider' and then reacting in fear to the idea of just simply remaining here wherein I then create within and as myself the desire to 'do something about this' and then give in to this desire – stop and breathe in and out, and then and say out loud – 'I am here', 'I stop'. From here, in order to redirect myself so that the mind does not immediately take over, I direct myself to take the external event and place it within and as myself where I imagine it, look at it, and consider it, and then ask myself the questions 'what am I practically going to do about directing this person or situation within physical reality?”

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react in fear to the thought that 'I might forget about the solutions that I have already realized within and as myself to the situation at hand that I have already considered if I do not keep thinking about it'

When and as I see myself reacting in fear to the thought that 'I might forget about the solutions that I have already figured out if I do not keep thinking about the situation at hand', I stop and I breathe. I see, realize, and understand that this fear is doing me no good and is only setting myself up to trigger more thoughts that will eventually lead me right back into my mind.

Thus, I commit myself to stop myself as soon as this fear comes up within taking a deep breathe in and then breathing out the fear with the out breathe – and then saying out load 'I am here'. 'I am the director of me, not this fear'. Then I direct myself to write out the solution if this is required so as to not forget.