When and as I see myself stepping into the self-suppression
character when in the presence of others of whom I have judged to be
'good-looking', and / or 'more financially successful than me', I
stop and I breathe. I do not accept and allow myself to go into the
self-suppression character as a way to hide my 'personality' so that
I won't be judged to be inferior within the point of being considered
to be 'stupid', 'unworthy', or 'dull / boring' while in their
presence.
Thus, I commit myself breath and remain here while in the presence
of beings that I have judged in this manner wherein I remain here in
breath instead of suppressing the things that come to my that I would
normally say or do.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
compare myself to others and then rate myself on a scale as to how I
'stack-up' within my looks and my financial success where if and when
I see myself as inferior in these points I then step into the
self-suppression character so that I can hide from these people and
then not be judged or seen by them as 'inferior' in some way.
When and as I see myself going into the self-suppression character
so that I can hide from others and not be judged by them as inferior
in some way, I stop and I breathe. I see, realize, and understand
that hiding from others so as to not be judged by them is not going
to protect me in anyway. I see, realize, and understand that it is
not others who have judged me, but it is me who has judged myself as
inferior, as dull, boring, not so smart, and not capable in a
financial way and thus when in the presence of others of whom I
believe possess these traits I 'freeze-up' so that I do not have to
face myself as these traits. I see, realize, and understand that
hiding in the self-suppression character is no solution – that the
solution is to breathe and remain here and face the self-judgments
that I have placed on myself that is the root of this 'problem'
Thus, I commit myself to breathe and remain here when in the
presence of others that I see possess the traits of 'good-looks',
'likable personalities', and 'financial success'.
I commit myself to remain here and breathe and interact equal and
one with these beings where I do not go into the self-suppression
character – wherein when I desire to suppress myself I choose the
breath instead and remain here and speak and interact equal and one.
I commit myself to face myself self-judgments that I am not
'good-looking', that I am not 'fun and exciting to be around', 'that
I am not capable of financial success' through breathing through this
backchat and facing this further in future writings.
I commit myself to face the fears and self-judgments that I have
created within and as myself in relation to these points that cause
me to go into the desire to go into the self-suppression character as
I see, realize, and understand that in order for me to move through
the self-suppression character that I created within and as myself I
have to face the feelings, self-judgments, backchat, and
personalities that I would like suppress as well as the fears that I
have if others that I judge to be superior to me in some way, were to
see who I really am.
I see, realize, and understand that we are all equals and that
superiority and inferiority exist only in the mind within and as the
act of comparison and judgment. I commit myself to stopping the act
of comparison and judgment.
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