Day 186 – Stopping thoughts / future projections

I've had a lot of trouble slowing down and remaining here so as to pay attention to what is going on around me, recently. I find myself getting sucked into my mind and then miss a lot of what is going on around me as a consequence. I am doing this more right now that 'normal'. I have a lot going on right now. I have some minor legal issues and as well as being super busy at work.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to get sucked into the future projections of my mind where I go into my mind and start imagining all kinds of possible scenarios that could or might happen.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect fear to the self-directive movement of remaining here within and as the breath / the physical as a solution to what it is that I face.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create and participate in the belief that I need to worry and future project in order to solve my problems.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that participating in fear only helps bring about into physical reality that what I fear.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use the tool of future projection more than what is necessary to move myself in the most productive way in this physical reality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use future projection to make myself feel better about the possible futures that I could have to face.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use future projection as a way to alleviate the fear that I have created within and as myself of possible future consequences.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use future projection as way to try and control the future or bend the physical reality to my will.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to delude myself that future projection can actually give me any control of the future whatsoever.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that future projection is a practical tool to be used to assess potentials and then formulate a game-plan accordingly and that is it – any use of future projection being this point is a mind possession.

When and as I see myself going into future projection where I project and act out in my mind all kinds of potential realities wherein I am mind possessed and not able to be here and participate equal and one with what is here in my direct physical reality, I stop and I breathe. I do not accept and allow myself to go into future projections beyond what is necessary and when and as I am in the presence of others or doing something that requires my direct attention.

Thus I commit myself to remain here and breathe and direct my attention to my breath and breathing and physical body – even move around a bit if necessary to pull myself out of my mind and right here within and as the physical so as to enable myself to participate equal and one within and as what is right here in front of me.

When and as I see myself going into the fear of 'what if' that then compels to future project in order to protect myself – I stop and I breathe. I do not accept and allow myself to be directed or participate in fear because I see, realize, and understand that fear is not real and is not a solution. I see, realize, and understand that there is nothing to fear about remaining here within and as the physical.

Thus, I commit myself to stop this fear by reminding myself that this fear is bullshit and that I have already sorted this fear out and thus I know that this fear is not helping me at all. Then I direct myself to breathe through this fear and remain here within and as the breath until I am clear and have no fear / fear reaction directing me into the mind.