Day 225 – CSC on Days 223 and 224

When and as I see myself stepping into the comparison and judgment characters where I compare and judge others in my mind and then start getting aggravated / frustrated / annoyed / angry within and as my mind.  I stop and I breathe.  I do not accept and allow myself to compare and judge others and then react emotionally within and as my mind because I see, realize, and understand that within this I am not living within and as equality and oneness with others as myself and that as a consequence I am separating myself into and as my mind and thus giving the directed power of me to my mind.  I see, realize, and understand that by suppressing these judgments, comparison, and then reactions of frustration that I am setting myself up for a future outburst reaction where I cannot ‘contain it any longer’ because the energy has built up within and as me / my mind to a ‘boiling point’ where I feel as if I just need to let it all out.

Thus, I commit myself to stop judgment and comparisons the moment that I see them arising within and as my mind as me by simply stopping them as soon as I see them arise within and as me by directing myself / my awareness to my breath – where I breathe deeply in and out.  I breathe in the judgments and comparisons and then breathe them out and within that I commit myself to not allow myself to move within my mind until I am clear, here, and aligned within and as my physical body.  From there, I direct myself to speak or think self-forgiveness on the comparisons and judgments of others so as to fully release them thus releasing any and all build up of emotional charges that will have to be eventually released otherwise.

I commit myself to working through the judgment and comparison characters that exist within and as me with further writings to further assist me in stopping these judgments and comparisons that are setting me up for future outbursts of frustration / annoyance / anger / and even revenge.

When and as I see myself in a situation where someone who I have judged before, in separation of myself as that person – where that person is acting / behaving in the same way which acts as trigger for me to act out in frustration / anger / annoyance characters, I stop and I breathe.  I preemptively slow myself down and remind myself that I have made judgments / comparisons of this being before and thus forgive myself in that moment to release any and all built up energy.   Thus, I commit myself to remain here in the breath, stable while in another’s presence so that I can speak and interact equal and one of no reactions.

When and as I see myself stepping into the backchat ‘I cannot take this any loner’, ‘this person has crossed the line’, ‘I must act now’, ‘and I cannot contain myself from this point.’ While in the presence of someone of whom I have had the same issues with before that I have compared and judged thus setting myself up for a future lashing out – I stop and I breathe.  I delete this backchat as soon as I see it arise within and as myself.  I see, realize, and understand that me as the breath as the director of me can stop all backchat and emotions and reactions by simply breathing and remaining here, stable, within and as the breathe as my physical body.  I thus, commit myself to take directive power over my backchat and immediately switch the program to say ‘I am here.  I am can remain here and not react’ and thus stop the backchat, and instead breathe and not even speak to the other until I am clear and stable within and as the breath.  I commit myself to choose breathing over the reaction of stepping into the characters of anger / frustration / annoyance – until I am clear.  I commit myself to removing myself from the other beings presence, if that is what it takes in order for me to clear myself.  I commit myself to then forgive all the reactions and backchats that arised from the trigger of being in someone’s presence who ‘crossed the line’ so thus to clear myself in that moment.  I commit myself to allow myself to speak only after I am clear.