I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
react emotionally with annoyance and frustration when and as I see something or
someone that is not acting or behaving in a way that I believe it should be
acting or behaving.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
program myself to such an extent that this energy reaction of frustration and
annoyance comes-up almost automatically, when and as something occurs that I
have judged as ‘not right or should not be happening’.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
believe that the energy experience of frustration and annoyance, that I
experience as a reaction to an external being or object, is really me; and thus
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand
that this belief, that I am this energy, is used as a platform for me to create
a relationship to objects or beings based upon how I have defined myself in
relationship to them and the energy experience of annoyance and frustration
that occurred within and as myself as a reaction. Within this, I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to
see, realize, and understand that this experience and my self-definition within
and as it, creates a relationship that will be coded as a memory, within and as
my physical body / my mind; and thus it will be accessed again, by me as my
mind consciousness system, automatically, when and as the same or similar event
occurs again in the future at which time the same reactions and experience will
be activated within and as me as my mind once again. Thus within this, I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself
to see, realize, and understand that I, myself, am programming myself and
setting myself for future outbursts of accumulated energy of annoyance,
frustration, and eventually anger.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
blame objects and people for my reactions of annoyance and frustration that
occur within and as myself, as if they or it caused me to react, thus further
separating myself into and as the energy of my mind. Within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed
myself use blame to justify my reactions of annoyance and frustration within
and as myself as if it is not my fault and it is my right to react.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
react with an emotional outburst of frustration and annoyance when things don’t
go the way I believe they should go.
Within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
justify within and as myself the use of sarcasm as ‘release’ some of the energy
created within and as myself in my reaction annoyance and frustration.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge
actions and behaviors of beings and or objects as ‘good / right’ or ‘bad /
wrong’. Within this, I forgive myself
that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that I am
setting myself up for either a reaction of feeling good / happy / satisfied
when and as beings or objects behave in a way that I have judged as ‘good /
right’, or an emotional reaction of frustration / annoyance / anger when beings
or objects beings behave in a way that I have judged as ‘bad / wrong.’
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
participate and go into the back-chat that automatically comes up, within and
as my mind when and as I am in a situation that I have judged as ‘bad / wrong’,
of and like: ‘This should not be happening this way’. ‘I should not have to be
dealing with this’. ‘I cannot allow
this to happen to me’. ‘I have to do
something about this’. ‘I cannot just
be here and allow this to happen at the same time’. ‘I deserve to and have the right to react in frustration and annoyance’.
‘If I don’t go into a reaction of frustration or annoyance, then justice or the
balancing of the equation will not be served’.
‘If I do not react or show discontent in some way, then the being or
even the object will believe that they can act this way and believe that they
can get away with this’. ‘If I do not
act in frustration and annoyance, then I am giving permission for this behavior
to exist that I have judged as wrong / bad’.’
Within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
believe that this back-chat, that comes up as a reaction within and as myself,
is me. Within this belief and
acceptance that this back-chat is me, is who I really am – I forgive myself
that I have accepted and allowed myself to form a relationship in frustration
and annoyance to that which I blamed for this reaction of back-chat to come up
– wherein I relate to this back-chat is if it is me, as it is real outside of
my mind, and thus within this relating to this back-chat as if it is me, I forgive
myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be moved by the energy of my
mind, and then justify reactions of annoyance and frustration as an experience
within and as myself in separation from what is actually here in the physical.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
believe that ‘I cannot just be here and allow this…to happen at the same time’
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
believe that ‘I cannot allow this…to happen to me.’
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
believe that ‘I deserve to and have the right to react in frustration,
annoyance, and anger’
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
believe in the idea that ‘I deserve anything at all’, other that what is right
here staring me in the face as a physical consequence of the totality of who I
have accepted and allowed myself to exist as within and as my mind.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
believe that ‘I should not have to be dealing with this…’ Within this, I forgive myself that I have
accepted and allowed myself to believe that things should exist in a specific
way, then compare beings, objects, and events to the pictures of how they
should exist within and as my mind, and then react in frustration, annoyance,
and anger if the physical actuality does not match the pictured illusion that
exists within and as my mind.
SF to be continued…
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