I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
relate to the energy of frustration and annoyance as if it is me within the
point that I am defining myself as ‘frustrated and annoyed’ in relationship to an external
point in my world that triggered these reactions. Within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed
myself to believe that I am the energy reaction of annoyance and frustration to
and towards external points in my reality.
Within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
record events where I have reacted in frustration and annoyance as memories
within and as my mind in and as my physical body. Within this, I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to
see, realize, and understand that these memories of events that triggered the
reactions of frustration and annoyance within and as me will be the foundation
for future events that are either similar or the same to activate the energies
of frustration and annoyance once again because when events match the picture presentation
of memories that exist within and as my mind / my physical body of past events,
they activate all the energies that I have stored as memories that I have
associated with these types of events, and because I have formed a relationship
of annoyance and frustration with the external event within my believing and
defining myself to be annoyed and frustrated with these types of events – the
energy of frustration and annoyance rushes forth to possess me in an instant
where I have very little directive will in these moments.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
believe that I am the energy of frustration and annoyance.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
relate to the energy reaction of frustration and annoyance as if it is me
within the point of defining myself as frustrated and annoyed in relationship
to a specific point within and as my external world / reality.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
believe that reacting in frustration or annoyance serves any purpose, is
appropriate, or justified for any reason whatsoever.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
believe that when events occur out of the ordinary, or outside of my
expectations, or outside of what I imagined was possible, or outside of
something that is convenient, or in a way that is adverse to me, or in a way
that prohibits me from being able to experience reality in the way that I want
to within and as my own self-interest – deserve and justify my reaction in
frustration and annoyance to it.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
believe that I am energy, that I am an energy reaction, that the energy of the
reaction is me and is my true self-expression.
Thus, within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed
myself to believe that if I do not react in the energy of frustration and
annoyance that somehow I am muting or suppressing my self-expression as energy.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
believe that I cannot contain the energy of frustration and annoyance that
activates once something violates my expectations, needs, wants, and desires.
To be continued…
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