I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that 'silencing the/my mind' in and of itself is a solution, as if that will stop the voices as personalities and characters that exist within and as my mind that constantly speak fear, justifications, judgments, etc without realizing that what one is really doing within the point of 'silencing the mind', is merely suppressing those voices and pushing them 'down' into the subconscious and unconscious mind where one cannot see or hear from them, but they still exist and from the subconscious and unconscious mind they have even more control / influence over the being / myself. And within this, I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, an understand that the silencing of the mind' is actually the result, not the solution, of directing self to instead breathe and then within self-honesty investigate those thoughts, feelings, emotions as personalities and characters as voices in the head, that are possessing self and then from there releasing self from them through self-forgiveness and corrective application where one walks the change in the physical as a physical application – where all this is done over time where eventually one will be clear where nothing exists in the secret chambers of the mind that can influence self.
I forgive myself that I have accepted
and allowed myself to believe in the 'silencing of the mind' as the
solution, instead of what it actually is as the result
of self-application, because within believing this I / one is able to
negate self-responsibility to self, where one stands up and faces
self for what self has accepted and allowed to exist within one's own
thoughts / mind as the mind, while at the same time 'elevating'
self's idea / picture of self to one of being superior, like being a
master of some sort who silences the mind, which is all just an idea
that has been programmed within one's subconscious and unconscious
mind over one's lifetime within the point of casually accepting the
images and pictures as ideas and beliefs of spirituality from one's
world, without really being 'here' and considering the consequential
outflow of what it really means to exist as the idea / picture /
belief of a spiritual being who silences the mind.
I forgive myself that I have not
allowed myself to consider that if I had been taking the
self-responsibility to stop my mind through breathing so as to be
remaining here within and as the physical in every breath, and from
there investigate myself as the mind within self-honesty, and from
there speak / write self-forgiveness, and from there speak / write /
walk corrective application, which includes again breathing and
remaining here in every breath – that I would consider it an odd
and fool-hearty solution to become the idea/ picture of a spiritual
being who stops the mind through suppressing it into the subconscious
and unconscious mind through mediation, in order to solve one's
self-created problems of mental backchat that dominates the being –
as this would be like closing one's eye's to what's here and
expecting it to not exist just because one's eyes are closed, and not
only that but believing self to be enlightened or superior in a way,
when all one has really done is merely found a way to hide from what
is here.
I forgive myself that I have not
allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that when and as I
have internal dialog / backchat that I cannot 'escape' from within
the point that I cannot get it to stop, that that is usually due to
fear, and fearing my own fear – where I fear a fear reaction to a
fear that thus creates / charges up the imagery of a feared event
within my mind which further charges-up more fear and fear of the
fear reaction to the fear in my mind like a viscous cycle – and
that within this, to hear the words 'just silence the mind' gives me
a great hope that I have some form of solution / escape and
self-empowerment from this self-induced torment of fearing my own
fear which makes me feel helpless and thus this is why it is so
enticing to hear these words.
I forgive myself that I have accepted
and allowed myself to be the 'victim' of my own thoughts and within
this feel inferior and powerless to others and my own mind and from
this starting point of inferiority and powerlessness become attracted
and allured to the idea of 'silencing the mind' because this gives me
a sense of taking my power-back thus giving me hope and also the
potential to manifest myself as a superior spiritual being.
I see, realize, and understand that the
solution to one's problem of mental backchat / internal dialog that
dominates the mind to a point where one feels' helpless and fearful
and even self-victimized is to stop one's mind through breathing, and
then investigating it within self honesty and common sense, and from
there release and transcend the mind through self-forgiveness and
walking corrective application where one scripts out exactly how one
will change self so as to not generate the internal dialog / backchat
that self was tormenting self with in the first place.
I see, realize, and understand that it
is not self honest and not 'common sense' to believe in the idea of a
spiritual being or the idea of 'stopping the mind' as a solution,
because these points avoid the actual facing of self which is the
only true solution one ever actually has.
I commit myself to breathing and
remaining here and facing myself as all as one as equal, as the
solution.
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