Day 2 - Fear In Relation to Money

I am in a perpetual situation where money, or having enough money, is constantly something that I have to face. The economy sucks and I am in one of the industries that are hardest hit, real estate. I sell kitchen and bathroom remodels, cabinets, tops, etc., and because of the influx of illegal immigrants and also legal immigrants from China etc., wages and sales prices are constantly coming under-fire wherein I have to sell for hardly enough to survive, if I expect to make a sale at all. My income is dependent upon having enough people needing my services at a time where people are not opting to do such things and if they do they want it as cheap as possible and with everyone so desperate and competing against immigrants both legal and illegal, sales are lean and hard to come by.

I have also embarked on a software sales job. This is commission only and has the potential to provide a much greater income. However, at this time, I am not making any sales. And finally, because of my situation in which I am taking care of 2 kids and providing for my partner, it is very difficult to change direction to a more lucrative field such as computer science, for example, where I know I have great aptitude for this and could probably land a job making good money. This not an option because I would have to go to school for a couple of years, take out more debt, and probably make less at my regular job because of the strain on my time. So, I am stuck, and constantly facing not having enough money with no end in sight.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being stuck in a situation where I may not be able to make enough money.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect ‘being stuck in a situation where I may not be able to make enough money’ to fear – and thus, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my own fear.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to charge the word ‘stuck’ as negative/bad, in separation of myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear immigrants taking my jobs and/or lowering my wages.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect ‘immigrants taking my job and/or lowering my wages’ to fear – and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my own fear.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to fear not having enough money.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect ‘not having enough money’ to fear – and thus, I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear my own fear.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to fear spending money.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect ‘spending money’ to fear – and thus I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear my own fear.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my partner spending money.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect my partner spending money to fear – and thus, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my own fear.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my teeth costing thousands of dollars to fix.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect ‘my cracked teeth costing thousands of dollars to fix’ to fear – and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my own fear.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my children requiring expensive health care solutions.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect ‘the possibility of my kids needed expensive healthcare solutions’ to fear – and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my own fear.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the fact that the economy will progressively worsen.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the fact that ‘the economy will progressively worsen’ to fear – and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my own fear.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that I may not be able to provide for my family as the economy worsens.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the fact that ‘I may not be able to provide for my family as the economy worsens’ to fear – and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my own fear.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to fear that I will not be able to afford to pay my bills.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect ‘not being able to afford my bills’ to fear – and thus I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear my own fear

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to fear that I will have to compromise myself to make money.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect ‘self-compromise to make money’ to fear – and thus I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear my own fear.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to charge the word ‘compromise’ as negative.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge word compromise as negative/bad in separation of myself.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see the sound signature of ‘compromise’ as come promise as in make promises one cannot keep, in separation of myself.

I forgive myself that within this, I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that I fear compromising, I fear making promises, I fear therefore the system that currently exists.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the current economic system as a system of empty promises.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the current economic system, in separation of myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect ‘the current economic system’ to fear – and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my own fear.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that the current system exists because of what I have accepted and allowed within self, as who I am as a being with empty promises made for survival.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to connect ‘self-compromise to make money’ to fear – and thus I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear my own fear.

I forgive myself, therefore, that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that there may come a point in time where even compromise will not suffice to survive in this current system.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect compromise/self-compromise to fear – and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my own fear.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to losing money.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect ‘losing money’ to fear – and thus I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear my own fear.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear that ‘I am not able to make enough money’

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect ‘not being able to make enough money’ to fear – and thus I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear my own fear.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to fear that I am not able to support myself and my family.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect ‘not being able to support myself and my family’ to fear - and thus I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear my own fear.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to fear not having enough money because I fear going into debt.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to connect ‘going into debt’ to fear – and thus I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear my own fear.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to fear losing my partner and kids because I am not able to make enough money.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect ‘losing my partner and kids because I am not able to make enough money’ to fear – and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my own fear.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to fear having to struggle to survive.

I forgive myself for accepted and allowing myself to connect ‘having to struggle to survive’ to fear – and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my own fear.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not fearing that I have to struggle to survive because I may not do anything about it if I do not fear this.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect ‘fearing not fearing to survive’ to fear – and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my own fear.

When and as I see myself going into fear of money, of not having enough money, I stop, I breathe.  I do not accept and allow myself to participate in the energetic charge of fear because I see, realize, and understand that I am here regardless of my participation in fear and that participating in such self-created, energy based ‘fear’ only serves to keep me in my mind; and in a dependency on my outer-reality manifesting in a certain way for me to be stable, which is separation of myself here as one and equal with all as me.

When and as I see myself going into fear of not making enough money to support me, or my partner, or my kids, or pay bills, or keep from going into debt, I stop, I breath.  I see realize and understand that this fear is of the mind and is self-created and does not exist or serve any purpose in and of itself and without my participation, fear does not exist.

When and as I see myself going into fear of immigrants taking my job or lowering my wages or the economy crashing even further, I stop, I bring myself back here as the breath – one and equal with the breath, the breath of life as me, and one equal with all existence as me, because I see realize and understand that fear is not real, but to participate in it actually serves to manifest my fear so I must face it as myself. Instead, I stop and face my fear here and now within and as the breath, by stopping my mind, stopping my participation in my self-created fear.