I feel as if I do not have enough time to write my SRA
assignments, or to get sales proposals done, or get enough quotes
done in order to ensure I take in enough income because of the strain
on my time in regards to spending ‘family’ time with my partner
and kids and also take care of all the responsibilities at home.
Within this I also fear that whatever task I chose to do is in a way
wasting time because I am not able to work on another task which also
needs to be done; or to just spend time with my partner and kids as
to not ignore them which leads to ‘relationship’ problems. So,
no matter what I do I always have an underlying feeling of haste,
where I am not able to just be here doing what I have decided it is
that I need to do one and equal with what I am doing.
I remember when I was a child that my parents would seem to
cut-short my visit with my cousins when visiting and it always being
disappointing and sad to have to leave before I was ready to go
because I was having so much fun playing. So, therefore I always had
underlying anxiety when playing with my cousins, or even my friends,
because I always knew that inevitably suddenly I would have to be
taken away from them.
I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself and my
life to be governed by time.
I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed time to come
before self.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear
not having enough time.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect ‘not
having enough time’ to fear – and thus I forgive myself for
accepting and allowing myself to fear my own fear.
I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to fear
that I am wasting time.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect
‘wasting my time’ to fear – and thus I forgive myself for
accepting and allowing myself to fear my own fear.
I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to fear
that I will be late.
I forgive myself for accepted and allowing myself to connect
‘being late’ to fear – and thus I forgive myself that I have
accepted and allowed myself to fear my own fear.
I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to fear
that I am wasting time.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
connect ‘wasting time’ to fear – and thus I forgive myself that
I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my own fear.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear
having multiple projects/responsibilities at the same time to
accomplish.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
connect ‘having multiple projects/responsibilities at the same
time’ to fear – and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted
and allowed myself to fear my own fear.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
experience fear and anxiety at the possibility that I will not be
able submit a sales proposal to customer in time.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
connect ‘not being able to submit a sales proposal on time to a
customer’ to fear - and thus, I forgive myself that I have accepted
and allowed myself to fear my own fear.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
experience anxiety while wanting to ‘get fast’ to a certain point
or place.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear
that I may not have enough time to spending with my kids and partner.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
connect ‘the possibility that I may not have enough or spend enough
time with my partner’ to fear – and thus I forgive myself that I
have accepted and allowed myself to fear my own fear.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear
that whatever activity I participate in may be abruptly cut-short due
to something outside of my control and within this I forgive myself
that I have accepted and allowed myself to approach almost everything
with fear of not having enough time.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
connect ‘the possibility that whatever activity I participate in
may be abruptly cut-short due to something outside of my control’
to fear – and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and
allowed myself to fear my own fear.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear
things that I perceive are outside of my control.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
connect ‘things that are outside of my control’ to fear – and
thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear
my own fear
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear
that I may not have enough time to complete my SRA assignments in
light of the fact that I have so many other responsibilities and
personal desires competing for my time.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
connect ‘that I may not have enough time to complete my SRA
assignments in light of the fact that I have so many other
responsibilities and personal desires competing for my time’ to
fear – and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed
myself to fear my own fear.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
experience anxiety when doing any particular project due to the
possibility of not having enough time – thinking, therefore, that I
am wasting my time and running out of time.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
experience anxiety the moment that I think of all the things that I
need to do and need to be done in relation to how much time that I
have.
I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to be
taken over by an energetic mind possession of haste when I believe or
see I don’t have enough time to complete a certain task or project,
while I believe this task to be very important.
I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to fear
to lose time.
I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to
connect ‘losing time’ to fear – and thus I forgive myself for
accepting and allowing myself to fear my own fear.
When an as I see myself going into fear of not being able to
complete a project on time, or not being able to spend time with
friends and family, I stop, I breath. I do not accept and allow
myself to participate in the emotion of fear in separation of myself
here as life, as the breath of life.
When an as I see myself going into the mind-possession of haste
and anxiety – I stop, I breathe, I bring myself back here one and
equal as the breath/the physical. I simply breathe through this
mind-possession, stopping my mind, not participating in this
energetic possession until it passes and I am here, clear.
When and as I see myself going into anxiety regarding time, I
stop, I breathe. I bring myself back here one and equal with the
physical as me, as who I am, and then prioritize my time as
effectively as possible and discipline myself to pay attention to the
completion of the particular task or project taking into
consideration myself and others and everything that is involved, from
an equal and one perspective - realizing that going into worry, or
haste, or fear/anxiety does not solve anything and only serves to
trap me into and as my mind as energy in separation.
From this moment forward, I will flag moments where I perceive or
have limited time, the value and importance placed in a specific
task, project, or point of participation and the beings for whom I
want to perform well. Then I will simply prioritize, plan, execute,
and breathe through all mind interference remaining here, one and
equal with all as me, stable in and as the breath.
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