Day 17 – Never Enough Time to Write VIIII – Physical Discomfort

If I am sitting for hours straight or off-and-on all day, while I am working, driving, or writing, I usually notice discomfort around my spine/mid-back and at the pelvis-leg joint area because of this joint being bent 90 degrees while in sitting position.  However, when I am sitting for extended periods of time doing something other than writing or working I hardly notice this discomfort.

 

It probably is best, for the body, not to be sitting for too long each day.  However, this can be addressed by taking responsibility on two points:

 

1.     Exercise or stretch daily for at least 10-20 minutes.

2.     Work or write diligently from start to finish as to lessen the time that is required to be sitting.

 

Instead of taking responsibility here, after sitting for an extended period of time I become concerned that this is a ‘problem’, and I use this as a reason to do something else.  I usually become ‘concerned’ about my ‘physical discomfort’ only when I am writing or working.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use the reason of ‘physical discomfort’ whether it be in the moment or the potential thereof, to neglect writing myself to freedom on a daily, or at least semi-frequent consistent basis.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into the emotion of ‘guilt’ because of my participation in thoughts that ‘I sit too much and therefore I am abusing my body’

 

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that I am using this ‘guilt’ to manipulate myself to fulfill my desires do something other than write or work.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear sitting too long because it may be debilitating to my body.

 

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to, instead of participation in fears of sitting for too long, practically address this real concern of taking care of my body by simply exercising or stretching for at least 10 minutes per day and also by not wasting so much unnecessary time sitting at the computer in the first place.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that the reason why I am so ‘aware’ of my body while working or writing is because I am not lost in my mind somewhere but right ‘here’ and that within that when I am lost in my mind I hardly notice my body or have any concern for it.

 

When and as I see myself going into the emotions of guilt and fear because of my participation in thoughts that ‘I cannot sit too long because it is bad for my body’ or because of my observation of ‘physical discomfort and then my participation in thoughts that my body needs a break’.  I stop and I breathe.  I do not accept and allow myself to participate in the emotions of guilt and fear which I am using to manipulate myself to stop writing or working.  Instead I simply address my physical concerns practically, bring myself back to the breath, here, and continue writing or working at the next available opportunity.

 

When and as I see myself participating in thoughts that ‘I am abusing my body by sitting too much’ or that ‘the physical discomfort that I feel needs to be addressed and if not I may be debilitated’, I stop and I breathe.  I bring myself back here in and as the breath and in and as my physical body and then do what is practical and physical to resolve to ensure that my body is not neglected nor is my writing or work.