Day 107 – Energy Fluctuation and Tiredness

I am back at this point of sleep, tiredness, and feeling energy fluctuation. I have pushed this point before, tried to reduce my hours of sleep per night, been successful to a point, but then after a while the feeling/belief of tiredness overwhelms me to the point where I just have to get a full eight hours of sleep to catch up. Then after a while, I just 'give up' on this point and go back to 8 hours without even pushing for less sleep. That's where I've been for the last few months.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I need 8 hours of sleep per night.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to 'feel' tired and out of energy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am 'out of energy'

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize and understand that my mind needs energy to feel alive and that I, as the physical, do not need energy and am always stable and constant.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to tell myself that I am tired.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to tell myself that I am out of energy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that energy actually exists.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be ruled by energy instead of me directing me in every moment of breath.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to voice, in my head, that 'I am tired' and thus as a consequence actually experience tiredness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that thought 'I am tired' and 'I have no energy; is who I am and therefore believe these thoughts to be me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to voice and then believe a thought.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give power to a thought and in that believe that the thought is me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that tiredness exists.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be subject to energy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be controlled by energy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience energy in the belief that it is me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be directed by energy and the feelings of tiredness.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that when a thought comes to mind and I speak or voice this thought in my head, I then manifest this thought and experience this thought, which is called 'energy'.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that the experience of a thought is energy. And thus, I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that to participate in the thought that 'I am tired or do not have enough energy' is a way for me to have an energetic experience as the mind, which is a form of self-manipulation.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that energy is when a system and myself come together as one and I think/believe that I am that system and then therefore give my power away to that system and experience that system as who I am.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give my power away to the energy of the tiredness system, believing that it is real.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give my power away to the energy derived from participating in the tiredness system, believing that it is real.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that it is the energy derived from the participation in thoughts, feelings, and emotions that I am 'living' for as the mind, and thus the I am tired system and the I have no energy system are constructs that exist as a way/back door for me to obtain energy / the experience of energy by participating in the thoughts and feelings that 'I am tired' and 'have no energy'.

To be continued...