I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to regret not
speaking-up for myself in my current life experience.
I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to regret not
living life to the 'fullest' because I was too 'shy'.
I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to regret not
having a better relationship to my father before he passed away.
I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to regret the
fact that I suppressed myself within and as my 'shyness' instead of
me living / expressing me in every moment of breath.
I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to regret that
I was too nervous and anxious to speak-up for myself and get what I
'wanted' while growing up and as a young adult.
I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to regret not
getting the girls that I wanted because I thought that I was too
stupid and boring to talk to.
I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to regret not
being as 'cool' as I could have been because I thought / perceived
myself to be too stupid and too boring to talk to and thus suppressed
myself and within suppressing myself I took myself out of the 'game'.
I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define
myself as stupid.
I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to compare
myself to others and then go into fear reactions of self-suppression
because within comparing myself to others I judged myself as stupid /
inferior and boring / un-stimulating.
I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live my
childhood and young adult life within the self-judgments that I am
stupid and boring.
I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself judge myself
as boring and not fun to talk to.
I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live the
self-consumed / self-centered point of being concerned with what
others think / perceive of me. And within that I forgive myself that
I have not accepted and allowed myself to live as me here in every
breath as one and equal with all beings as self – with no concern
fear for what others think / perceive of me outside of the very words
that I speak.
I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live my
life within believing that I have to entertain others with my words;
and thus I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize
that this is the starting point of the self-judgment that 'I am
boring'.
I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be in
competition with my intelligence because of the self-judgment that 'I
am stupid'.
I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to compare
myself to others and then go into suppression and hiding from others
because of my own self-judgments.
I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live my
adolescence to early adulthood with the opinion that I am 'less than'
/ 'unworthy' to others.
I
forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and
understand that this point of inferiority placed my into a point of
competition wherein I later-in-my life began to compete / design
myself within the point of presenting myself as smarter-than and fun
and exciting to be around.
I
forgive myself that I haven't allowed myself to realize that in
accepting and allowing regret to become me, I exist as regret and am
bound to the past – carrying the burden of the past with and as me
and in this becoming the past in the present, creating my future
based on the past as the past which I have become and so forever
continuing my existence of the past as the past in regret – not
allowing me to live here.
I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place value
in things that remind me of the past so that I can feel like I felt
in the past.
I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to regret
moments where I didn't allow myself to speak-up and be heard, but
instead held myself back in and as self-suppression.
I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to regret the
moments wherein I didn't speak or say what was here in self-honesty
and common sense in the moment, but instead gave into fear and
anxiety and when it was too late, sadness and nostalgia consumed me
because I didn’t accept and allow me to be self-honest with me
myself here.
I
forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and
understand that this longing for the past, this nostalgia is a result
of the regret that I hold for the past.
I
forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and
understand that this subtle sadness that I carry with me for the past
is a result / connected to the regret that I hold for the past.
I
forgive myself that I not allowed myself to see, realize, and
understand that the reason why I did not speak-up for myself was that
I feared losing my friends and social experiences that I desired.
And within that I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed
myself to try to manipulate others with my silence /
self-suppression.
I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to regret
having lived a childhood through young adulthood within the point of
extreme shyness and self-suppression and even within the point of
trying to get what I want / manipulate others with my quietness. And
within that I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself
to live regret and nostalgia as me for the past because I did not get
what I 'wanted' and therefore desire to go back and get want I wanted
with my new 'personality' now.
I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself react in fear
and anxiety towards social situations and then hold back, close
myself up and suppress myself as thought I wanted to 'vanish' and
'disappear'.
I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself believe /
perceive that there is 'unfinished business' within and as my past
because I did not express myself to the 'fullest' and did not get
what I 'wanted' and did not stand-up for myself in social situations
and within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed
myself to go into the point of regret and then missing / longing for
the past – to experience it again so that I can get what I want
because of who I am now.
I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to victimize
myself and punish myself within and as the point of regret and
wanting / desiring to relive the past.
I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have an
energetic relationship with the past within and as the emotional
experiences of regret, nostalgia, longing and missing the past.
I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not utilize
every moment to the fullest potential.
I
forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and
understand that 'I am here' and that I make a difference where I am
right now; and within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and
allowed myself to try to make a difference within that which is not
existing anymore, which is already gone, which is already past.
I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live in the
past.
I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to 'pity'
myself for suppressing myself within shyness / not speaking up for
myself in my past.
I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to punish
myself for what I could have done / lived different during those
years.
When
and as I see myself missing the past / longing for the past I stop
and I breathe because I see, realize, and understand that there is
nothing I can do about it now.
And
thus, I commit myself to stop the thoughts, memories, stop fueling
and feeding my mind consciousness system’s self-experiential
self-interest, to stop feeding my own self-victimization.
I
commit myself to push myself to live here in actual psychical reality
within what's real – here – where my impact is made on and within
every moment that I participate in this reality.
I
forgive myself to flag the points wherein I fear taking
responsibility, speaking, expressing and being self-directive so that
I don't manifest myself within and as the energetic experience of
regret, longing, and sadness going forward.
I
commit myself to stop living in the past, be here, make a change
where you really can make a change in your actual practical living.
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