Day 124 – Self-forgiveness on My Existence as an Ego

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist as an ego, which is who I believe myself to be and who I have defined myself to be.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that my ego includes all my personalities which are activated as reactions to my environment and social settings, which include my behaviors, how I carry myself, the words that I speak, my tonalities – all of everything that I exist as / present myself as, is my ego.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that all the different ways that I present myself have become the different 'me's' as my different personalities of ego – where I completely become a different personality dependent on where and with whom I am interacting.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that I design my ego according to interpreting other beings' behaviors and making conclusions about 'who I am' based on those interpretations.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that since everything of me exists as ego, then everything topic of self-forgiveness is, in-fact, the topic of my ego.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that the ego is a 'part of self' that self has created and designed, so within that I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that if I try to stop my ego as if it is separate from me, I am actually, within that point of separation, feeding the ego and perpetuating the ego - because I am 'moving myself to there / suppressing myself as the ego', thus, moving myself into the design or manifestation of the ego which acts to perpetuate the ego.

Thus, I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that if the Ego exists, then I exist as the Ego and it is not about me changing the Ego as a separate manifested design or system – it is about me actually changing myself as the ego that I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that we/I've currently exist AS the ego, being but one design of the entire Mind-manifestations, yet I've/we've designed the ego as a separate-manifested projection of self, and that ego exists within the mind-head region wherein we've created this entire mind-manifested reality of beliefs, interpretations, perceptions, ideas or ourselves / of myself – so the ego contains all that; and we / I exist within this definition of myself as Ego which is not the actuality of who I am here – it is simply a projection.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that the ego is all my beliefs, ideas, interpretations, projections, definitions, feelings, emotions, judgments, fears, desires – everything of self that self experiences self to be, but is not real – it's not actual, it's not factual, it's not a livable equal and one expression of who I am - its simply a concoction of literal projected interpretations.