Day 115 – Nervousness and Anxiety when Talking to Customers

I noticed yesterday that when talking to a certain builder I became nervous and anxious. Towards the end of our conversation I began to talk fast because I was thinking that maybe he was annoyed at the time it took to have our conversation. I was afraid that maybe he would be annoyed with me and then not do business with me after all. This builder is my age and also has had a hit record album, years back, and now builds high-end homes. He lives in a huge castle-looking home, himself as well, so I tend to look at him as 'superior' to me, or at least I 'feel' inferior' to him. So, when talking to him I noticed I was experiencing nervousness and anxiety. I also notice that often times I have a bit of nervousness and anxiety in me when making business presentations with most of my customers because of an underlying fear that maybe they won't do business with me and also hope that they will.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to get nervous and anxious when presenting my work or discussing my product / offering to a potential customer.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to get nervous and anxious making business presentations to potential customer's.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to get nervous and anxious while making a business presentation to this specific builder that I have feelings of inferiority towards.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself be nervous while making a business presentation to someone that I have accepted and allowed myself to define as 'superior' to me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience nervousness and anxiety while waiting to see if someone accepts my business offers / proposals.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience anxiety the moment that I allow myself to not trust myself 'here' in the moment.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience anxiety when not knowing 'how to handle' things instead of trusting myself 'here' as myself in every moment of breath.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place trust in 'how well I present myself and in someone else accepted me' rather than placing my trust in me in every moment of breath, 'here'.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to misplace my trust in the 'hope' that someone else will accept me so that I can have what I want / need.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to become anxious and nervous due to fear of the future / fear of not having business proposals accepted and therefor fear of having no money.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the future.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect 'the future' to fear – and thus, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my own fear.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create expectations of 'how things might be' so that I feel like I have control over the future, because I fear the future.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to imagine and rehears the potential outcome of events over and over again in my mind, so that I feel like I have control over the future, because I fear the future and I fear the potential loss of money, specifically, which may occure in the future.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to compare myself with this specific builder and then see myself as 'inferior' to him, and then as a result go into nervous and anxiety when speaking with him.

When and as I see myself going into nervousness and anxiety when with customers of anyone, I stop and I breathe. I do not accept and allow myself to go into nervousness and anxiety over anything because I see, realize, and understand that this emotional experience serves no purpose and is a result of misplaced trust, hope, expectation, and fear of the future and inferiority.

And thus, I commit myself to stopping my participation in the emotion of anxiety and nervousness and flagging points that I have this experience within myself so that I can further investigate why it is I am experiencing nervousness and anxiety, so that I can release myself from it.