JTL Day 66 – Self-Forgivness on Resistance to Self-Honesty Continued

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into resistance to writing my self-honesty and self-forgiveness because of my participation in the idea that 'I have been sitting at the computer too long'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into resistance to writing my self-honesty and self-forgiveness because of my participation in the idea that 'I have been sitting at the computer too long and therefore need a break and should do something else.'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into resistance to writing my self-honesty and self-forgiveness because of my participation in the thought that this would be boring or more work and I just want to relax.'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to find ways of escaping writing writing my self-honesty and self-forgiveness by following the impulses that come-up in my mind to do something else, instead of remaining here and breathing.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to follow my impulses as they come up as a form of resistance towards my self-commitment to apply myself within both the verbal and written application of self-honesty and self-forgiveness, and corrective application.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be 'compulsive' within the point that when an impulse/thought comes up to do something else other that my self-commitment to write my self-honesty and self-forgiveness, I then follow that impulse to wherever it goes, instead of remaining here within and as the breath and breathing – ignoring and suppressing the realization that I do not have to follow my impulses/thoughts as they come up in the moment, that I am choosing to do so in that moment when they come up.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be 'impulsive' within the definition of following my thoughts when they come up and fulfilling my desires as they come up, instead of remaining here within and as each and every breath and directing myself to remain on-track with my self commitments.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to follow my thoughts and desires as they come up, to do something other than fulfilling my self commitments to self-honesty and self-forgiveness, even though I realize that I do not have to – that I can remain here and breathe. And therefore, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to abdicate my self responsibility to myself to participate in the energetic high of thoughts, feelings, and emotions.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to allow almost any impulse/thought to direct me when and as I am faced with taking self-responsibility to sit down and write and/or verbally express self-forgiveness/self-honesty and self-commitments within the point of stopping my mind – and therefore I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand the irony in the point that 'in my efforts to stop my mind, my mind rebels and takes charge by generating impulses/thoughts/desires to lure me away from the stopping my mind' – and when I 'take the bait', I strengthen my mind and its ability to control and direct me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give my power away to my mind by participating in the thoughts/desires/impulses that come up to lure me away from taking self-responsibility in expressing self=honesty, self-honesty, and corrective application.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to diminish myself by giving into the thoughts/desires/impulses of my mind that form as a resistance to me standing as the directive force of me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the thought that 'writing or expressing self-forgiveness and self-honesty is too hard' and then to participate in the next thought/desire to come up that 'I want to do something easier and more fun' and then participate in the ensuing desire to do whatever else in order to fulfill this desire to 'have more fun' and not have to do something that is so 'difficult.'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that within this, I will eventually take self-responsibility to consistently walk self-honesty and self-forgiveness. And within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that in waiting for myself, I am creating/forming yet another impulse and justification to follow and therefore give my power away to my mind and the energy of the thoughts generated by me participating in my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not, see, realize, and understand that the thoughts/desires/impulses that come up to lure me from taking directive control and self-responsibly to reaming in and as the breath as the physical are manifold and endless, as me as my mind will come up with an endless amount of excuses and justifications as to why I cannot fulfill my self-commitments within and as self-honesty and self-forgiveness right now at this very moment.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to wish or desire that 'religion' was real, after all, because of the point that is coming up that taking self-responsibility to change oneself into what is best for all, is not going to be easy.