Thursday, November 28, 2013

JTL Day 80 – Taking self-responsibility by applying what I know

As Quoted from Heaven's Journey to Life Blog, 'Taming the Wild Nature of the Mind (part two) Day 468:



“This is the same with our relationship to the Mind: if we only hold the knowledge, information, technique and tools within ourselves in relationship to the Mind, but still accept/allow ourselves in the Mind to ‘run wild’ – no change will ever manifest within who we are / in the Mind and so also not in our life/living experience/application.”



Note:



This is an area that I have been 'guilty off'. As a matter of fact, this is basically the impetus behind my writing the 'My Destonian Personality Blog'



From Heaven's Blog:



“Therefore, in process – one always start with the basics to analyze/assess your relationship to thoughts, emotions/feelings, backchat, imagination. To be able to ‘see yourself for who/how/what you are’ – you need to self-honestly know how quickly you tend to follow thoughts, what particular thoughts you tend to follow more easily than others, how/why/when/where you give into emotions/feelings and what particular emotions/feelings you tend to give into more easily than others. The same then goes for imaginations / backchats. One need to have a ‘map’ of who you are in/as the Mind to from there start with the basics to be able to establish a relationship with yourself, the Mind and your life/living experience/application. From here, the process starts with applying the knowledge, information, technique and tools step by step, day by day – working with and changing what you’re able to at this stage based on your current, self honest, relationship to yourself and the Mind and your life/living experience/application.”



Self Forgiveness:



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to build and amass only knowledge, information, technique, and tools within myself in relationship to my mind, but still accept and allow myself to 'run wild' in my mind which has the result of no change within who I am, in the mind, and also who I am in my life, living, experience, and application.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to develop feelings of guilt to when I see myself go into the mind and accept and allow myself to 'run wild' within and as my mind, as a way of 'making-up' for accepting and allowing myself to run-wild in my mind by following thoughts, feelings, emotions, and reactions as they come up, instead of remaining 'here' and standing and APPLYING the knowledge, information, technique, and tools that I have acquired.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not take self-responsibility in the moment that I see myself going into the mind and wanting to act out, by stopping and breathing and thereby grounding myself and then applying the tools of writing and speaking self-forgiveness so as to further assist me in stopping my mind.



I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to apply the tool of self-forgiveness effectively within not speaking or thinking self-forgiveness in the moment that I see myself going into or desiring to go into my mind as a means to stopping my mind and grounding myself, bringing myself 'here'.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to neglect my responsibility to myself by not taking the time, daily, to analyze and assess my relationship to thoughts, emotions, feelings, backchat, reactions and imaginations. So that I am more able to 'see myself' for who/how/what I am and have become within and as my mind.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to neglect my responsibility to myself to not explore in self-honesty how quickly I tend to follow thoughts, what particular thoughts I tend to follow more easily than others, how/why/when/where I give into emotions and feelings and what particular emotions and feelings I tend to give into more easily than others.



And within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create the excuse and experience of 'not having anything to write about' of which is only possible by my self-neglect in not applying the knowledge and information and the tools that have amassed within my mind, so as to assist me identifying clearly what it is the I accept and allow within and as my mind.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not use the tools, knowledge, and information that I have acquired to explore, clarify, and identify imaginations and backchats that I accept and allow, so as to create a 'map' of who I am in and as the mind, to from there, start with 'basics' to be able to establish a relationship with myself, the mind, and my living experience and application.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to neglect the process of step-by-step and day-by-day applying the knowledge, information, technique, and the tools that I have acquired thereby working with and changing what I am able to at my current self-honesty, relationship with my mind and my life/living experience/application.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that my relationship with my mind and my living experience and ability within self-application is something that changes and improves over time so long as I apply myself day-by-day, breath-by-breath, consistently. And within that I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to play games with myself by believing that I have nothing to write about and nothing to explore because I cannot 'think' of anything when in reality this is so because I am not applying myself effectively.



When and as I see myself going into thoughts that 'I do not have anything to write about' I stop and I breathe and bring myself 'here' because I see, realize, and understand that this is only so because I have not been effectively applying the knowledge, information, and tools that I have already acquired so as to assist me within the mapping out of my mind so that I can better see my relationship to my mind, see my acceptances and allowances, and what it is that I have allowed myself to be and become as a mind-consciousness system.



When and as I see myself accepting and allowing myself to allow me as my mind to 'run wild' within and as my mind, I stop and I breathe and ground myself within and as the breath – and I bring myself 'here' and apply the tools that I have acquired so that I can see and map out what it is that I am doing within and as my mind so that I can assist myself in further self-application to finally stop my existence as a mind-consciousness system.



And thus,



I commit myself to applying the vast knowledge base and tools of self-honesty, self-forgiveness, corrective application, and breathing on a daily basis.



I commit myself to stopping my mind by applying the tools that I have acquired in the moment and also later as I sit down to write, instead of letting my mind 'run wild' and making excuses and justifications/rationalizations as to why I allowed this.



I commit myself to using the tools that I have acquired to map out my mind and my relationship to it so that I can assist myself in finding and writing in high detail the points that I see and identify so that I can truly stop my existence as as the mind.



I commit myself to taking self-responsibility by applying myself daily using and applying the tools that I have already acquired to create myself as life, of the physical, and stop the mind and my existence as a system that runs on energy which has adverse consequences for all.

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