JTL Day 69 – What it means to live as 'all as one as equal as me'

So, what I want to establish here for myself is a clear understanding of what it really means to live 'here' as 'all as one as equal as me, as the totality of existence as me, as the physical as me, as the breath as me, of life.' What does all this mean, and when am I living in 'separation'?

These things I have understood to a certain extent, but I have not established my understanding in these matters to provide an effective frame-of-reference, so that I can look at how it is that I am living and see whether I am aligning myself in 'separation' or in 'equality and oneness'. And without this frame-of-reference, I believe that it has made it difficult for me to see my own 'self dishonesty', defined as living in separation of the mind, so as to correct those points and align myself within equal and one living.

So, I have realized that I am either living as equality and oneness or within and as separation, and I have been rehearsing and exploring what it means to really live 'here in equality and oneness'; and I have also been exploring what it means to live in separation, in my mind as systems as thoughts, feelings, and emotions – and this is what I have realized:

When I am in my mind thinking and reacting in emotions or having feelings, I am in-fact separating myself from all of existence as me within and as my mind. I am existing in my mind, as separate from everything else.

For instance, if someone does or says something and I have a reaction or feeling to that person, by reacting, I am in-fact separating myself from that person, as me. In other words, if I were to remain 'here, equal and one' with that person 'as me', then I would not have reactions or feelings towards that person, because that would require me to go into my mind, in separation, instead of remaining 'here as all as one as equal'.

In actuality, what I am doing when I react towards someone, is participating in my mind, in separation, and the reaction shows me that I too am doing the same thing in some form or another, and I am suppressing that very point within myself and then projecting it onto the individual that I am reacting towards. Now, that does not mean that the individual that I have reacted towards does not actually have the 'problem' that was the basis for my reaction. It just shows me, my reaction, that I am also doing the same thing and then by participating in my reacting I am living in separation, within my mind, from that being. If I were not doing the same thing, then I would not react; I would remain 'here, stable within the breath' because I am equal and one with that being and reacting towards that being is the same thing as reacting to myself. 'Equal and one living', would mean that I, instead of reacting, I would simply remain 'here' and look within myself as to what it is that I accepted and allowed within myself to bring about the existence of myself as that being in the first place.

Having conversations in my mind, is another point of separation. By conversing to myself in my mind, I am living in my mind, in separation from what is 'here', as 'all as one as equal'. So, I am separating myself into and as a contained energy structure, the mind, by simply thinking and especially by thinking too much. So, this can be seen by, for instance, when I take a shower and am thinking about my day and shaving at the same time – by doing so, I am not 'here' feeling the blade run across my skin, sometimes to the point where I may even injure myself. Now, thinking is required, however, to perform tasks, especially those that require the obtaining of money. So, it would be a good thing to align myself with the use of thinking to perform tasks, and then stopping any form of thinking beyond that point.

So, by participating in thoughts, feelings, emotions, reactions, judgments, personalities, patterns, habits, fears, visualizations, etc., I am separating myself from myself as 'all as one as equal' because I am not 'here' as the 'totality of all of existence as me', but rather I am existing within my mind as a prisoner of my mind. So, one is to living 'here' as 'all as one as equal as self' when one is living free of all constructs of the mind as outlined above. Living in 'equality and oneness' is a natural consequence of stopping the mind because it is the mind, that separates everything within and as concepts and definitions that don't exist naturally, but only as constructs and inventions of the mind and it is the mind that one goes into when thinks and therefore separates oneself from all that is here.