So, to continue from the last post, the
relationship between money and the sense of fulfillment and also sex
and the sense of fulfillment is very similar within the point that
both sex and money give one the ability to fill the moment with
energy producing experiences, and thus feel fulfilled, but not
realizing that its just a 'fool' being filled with energy and
therefore tied to the loss of self, and thus time, or rather then
tied to time. You see, because time is money and money brings one
access to energy producing experiences, which in its purest forms
come in sex. Now that's not to say that sex is 'bad', but rather
that the pursuit of sex to feel fulfilled and happy, is really a
pursuit of energy, based on pictures and desires, which charges one's
experience as a mind-consciousness system. When sex is an expression
of self with and as the physical, that is a different story of which
is not something that is 'pursued' out of boredom or a sense of being
unfulfilled, but rather is something that happens as an expression of
self in the moment.
So, thus, we are, I am, in this race
against time to get money so that I can have sex, which is the
ultimate experience of energy, in a nutshell. This is the pursuit of
happiness, the 'high penis (ness)' of happiness. This is why we have
a huge Egyptian Bull-Penis Statue in front of the White House. This
is why we have the pursuit of happiness written into our constitution
with the bull penis in front of the White House – so that everyone
can know that our beloved government embodies the symbol of sexsex or
rather success which is synonymous with the high-penis of happiness.
And we are the fools who look to be are tied-up in regards to our
time, so that we can be fool-filled with the high penis of happiness
within and as the ever illusive pursuit of money which is one and
equal to energy, the energy of the mind.
And that is what I am doing. I am
pursuing the energy of the mind within looking to be fulfilled in
every moment, thus wasting time and selling myself out to the most
energy producing experience that I can find at any given moment.
Thus, I am a prostitute to energy and I sell my time, or rather I tie
myself to time, looking for it. And that is why I feel guilty about
it, and anxious when it comes to my time. Because I only have so
much time to get this energy and because I know deep down that I am
selling out for it. Just like a prostitute sells his body for sex, I
sell myself out to time for money to buy things that make me feel
fulfilled thus happy, and it would be sex in every moment if I had
the money for it because this is the highest energy that money can
buy. And that is why porn is so popular and pervasive, because it is
our own secret desires and fantasies to be able to access this energy
constantly – we would all be porn stars if we had the money to do
so.
Thus, when I get angry at people for
wasting my time, it is because I know that I have been selling out
and not directing myself in self-awareness in every moment, looking
for fool-fill ment. Because if I had been 'here' breathing in every
moment, not selling out, I would not get agitated with how long
things take to do anything.
So, since it is financially impossible
to have sex constantly, I am thus looking for the second best
experience in every moment within regards to whatever it is that I
have access to within my self-definition. You see, I have charged
certain activities as good/positive/exciting and others and
bad/boring/negative all so that I can easily sort-out my experience
to constantly be leading me to the most energy producing experience I
can participate in.
There is a story in the bible about how
someone sells his birthright to the kingdom of heaven for a pot of
pourage. This is what we are actually doing all day long every day.
We are selling our birthrights as life, for the energetic experience
of the mind because we believe that the pourage is better. We don't
place value in the experience of just simply being 'here', which is
the real kingdom of heaven. This is so because we have bought the
lie, the lie of the pursuit of happiness. And this is what I am
doing, every moment that I miss a breath, I eat the pourage.
Why can't we just be 'here'. What's
wrong with just being 'here' How much time would I have it I always
did what was the most practical thing to do within common sense and
what's best for all, in every moment. Why is everything judged and
rated as positive/negative? Why are things not just things? Why is
my experience not equal and one with regards to everything that I do?
Why have I not realized that the starting point of the pursuit of
happiness is UN-happiness / UN fulfillment? Why do I participate in
the polarity of happy/unhappy/fulfilled/unfulfilled?
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