I forgive myself that I have defined
myself as bored and the experience of myself as boring.
I forgive myself that I have accepted
and allowed myself to judge the word boring as negative/bad in
separation of myself.
I forgive myself that I have accepted
and allowed myself to go into desire/want for something more than
what is here because I have defined my experience of what is here as
boring, in separation of myself.
I forgive myself that I have accepted
and allowed myself to believe that I am not fulfilled because I
participate in this experience of a nagging feeling that 'somethings
missing' and 'I need something more' – as if I am always 'empty'
which is the starting point of not being ful-FILLED and the negative
polarity of fulfillment.
I forgive myself that I have accepted
and allowed myself to judge the word fulfillment as positive/good,
and to judge the word unfulfilled as negative/bad. And within this I
forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define my
experience of myself withing this constant nagging feeling that
something is not right and I need something more as being
'unfulfilled', within the negative polarity of the mind and energy.
Thus I forgive myself that I have
accepted and allowed myself to be driven by the desire for a positive
polarity experience in the search for something more 'out there' to
fulfill myself, instead of realizing that I am just simply 'here' and
ignoring the psychical reality that I am simple 'here' already
fulfilled.
I forgive myself that I have accepted
and allowed myself to be the 'fool' who seeks to be filled, not
realizing that within living that, I am living the starting point of
unfulfillment, all within separation, within the mind – ignoring
the physical reality of what is actually 'here'.
I forgive myself that I've accepted and
allowed myself to separate myself from right 'here' by believing that
being right 'here' is not fulfilling because I have participated in
the nagging feeling that I need something more than what is 'right
here' and defined it as boring and unfullfilling, separate from
myself.
I forgive myself that I have accepted
and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that the
starting point for this entire boredom construct, which leads to me
creating and then chasing desires to fulfill myself, comes from my
participating in thoughts that arise within my mind that 'something
is not right, and I need something more than what is here' that then
lead to the negative energetic experience of the feeling of boredom
that I alone create within myself through my participation in the
mind. And thus I forgive myself that I have not considered that
within this, I can never be fulfilled or satisfied within anything
'out there' because everything 'out there' merely brings me a
positive energetic experience that only ends and leaves me back at my
starting point of emptiness and lacking.
I forgive myself that I have accepted
and allowed myself to charge the word satisfy as positive/good, in
separation of myself.
I forgive myself that I have accepted
and allowed myself to define my experience of myself as 'satisfied'
or not satisfied'.
I forgive myself that I have not
allowed myself to realize that I can never be satisfied so long as I
am seeking satisfaction from something 'out there'
I forgive myself that I have accepted
and allowed myself to compare my experience of myself and my life
with someone else's life and perceived experience of themselves, and
then be 'unsatisfied' or even 'satisfied' based on how I rate myself
within this comparison.
I forgive myself that I have accepted
and allowed myself to be driven by pictures in my mind and to be
satisfied only at the fulfillment of these pictures of what kind of
life I should be living.
I forgive myself that I have accepted
and allowed myself to be programmed by TV and culture as to what kind
of life is a satisfying life and that I need to be satisfied.
I forgive myself that I have accepted
and allowed myself to believe that I am not satisfied.
I forgive myself that I have accepted
and allowed myself to participate and create a negative experience of
myself within defining myself as not satisfied.
I forgive myself that I have accepted
and allowed myself to define myself as 'not satisfied'
I forgive myself that I have accepted
and allowed myself to participate in the negative polarity of not
being satisfied, which then pulls me to create a positive experience
of myself within being satisfied.
I forgive myself that I have accepted
and allowed myself to separate myself from the word 'satisfy' by not
living satisfaction as who I am in every breath, and instead running
from the negative charge associated with the self-created experience
and definition of not being satisfied towards the positive experience
of being satisfied within things 'out there' that I have defined as
satisfying, in separation of myself.
I forgive myself that I have not
allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that my desire to be
satisfied originates from my lack of satisfaction, all of which I
create within and as my experience of myself within the mind, within
energy, within polarity. And thus, I forgive myself that I have
accepted and allowed myself trap and limit myself within the mind,
within believing that my experience of myself can actually fluctuate
within the positive/negative polarity of feelings and emotions
outside of what I give my away power to.
I forgive myself that I have accepted
and allowed myself to give my power away to the energetic
fluctuations of the mind wherein I become subject to the energetic
feelings and emotions and whims of the mind, instead of reaming right
'here' in every breath simply deleting the thoughts, feelings, and
emotions as they come up, taking my power back.
I forgive myself that I have accepted
and allowed myself to fear having a negative experience of myself.
I forgive myself that I have accepted
and allowed myself to fear not being able to define myself as
satisfied or fulfilled.
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