JTL Day 97 – Self-Correction on Anger, Continued

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that my time can be wasted, and within that I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the idea of my time being wasted become a trigger for me to go into the emotional experience of impatience that then leads into an expression of anger.

When and as I react with impatience and then anger because I feel that my time is being wasted, and become angry and then blame that which I exert my anger at for my time being wasted, instead of looking at myself in where I have been self-dishonest with my time, I stop and I breathe. I see, realize, and understand that if I am 'here' as breath in every moment directing myself as me 'here', not giving in/or creating any form of energetic systems/resistance of the mind to what it is that I need to do – but simply doing it in the moment that it needs to be done, that within living that – I would not have any reaction to an 'outside' force 'imposing' on my time because I would be 'here' already with time, as time, directing time as me to be the most effective with my time, in every moment.

When and as I go into the emotional reaction of anger because of my participating in back-chat in relationship to any trigger, I stop and I breathe.

I realize that anger is form of blame.

I realize that anger is from a starting point of self-dishonesty.

I realize that anger already exists within and as me before any thing triggers it.

I realize that what triggers my anger shows me areas specifically to look at within myself within that standard of equality and 'hereness'

I realize that my anger is really anger at and with self.

I realize that I am perpetuating that which exists that I am angry at through my anger.

I realize that I am separating myself into and as my mind by reacting in anger.

I realize that anger does not really exists, and that I have the power to stop and breath and say 'till here no further!'

And thus,

When and as I see a reaction of anger within me, and then certain triggers come up, I stop and I breathe. I do not accept and allow myself to react/generate/fuel and exert the anger within me. Instead I use this anger as a flag-point so that I can know that I am being self-dishonest and also see specific areas that I need to direct within awareness.

And thus,

I commit myself to stopping my reactions of anger and the back-chats that lead-up to the experience of anger through breathing in/breathing in the reactions and back-chats, and then breathing out/breathing out the reactions and back-chats, until I am clear.

I commit myself to when and as I have the back-chat that 'I cannot go without a reaction in anger', to breath in this back-chat, and then breath it out or my mind – and I do not allow myself to speak or move any further within me until I am clear, and 'here'. Then I direct myself to the most practical solution for the given situation.

I commit myself to stopping all reactions in anger through breathing, speaking self-forgiveness in the moment, and also through establishing self as self-honest in every way and in every moment, here, in real-time.

I commit myself to explore my reactions in anger that I cannot stop through further investigating my fears, areas of self-dishonesty, and why I react in anger.