JTL Day 92 – Giving Up On Myself, Part II

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to give up.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that giving up actually exists.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to perceive that I actually have the ability to 'give up'.

I forgive myself that I haven't allowed myself to apply myself effectively in every moment and thus the door of self-transcendence as giving up stands here before me – now I have to decide whether I will stand or fall within this experience of giving up before me.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to accept and allow wanting to give up within my world

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to accept wanting to give up within me.

I forgive myself that I haven't allowed myself to realize that If I accept and allow myself to five up here, everything and all that I have done in the past will come back tenfold and I will have to stand up again.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowed myself to allow fears and doubt to direct me instead of me directing myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to give my power away to fears and doubts, accepting and allowing myself to believe that the experience of wanting to give up is 'more than' and more 'powerful' than me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my memories.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect fear to the idea of 'going into my memories' and thus, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my own fear.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to participate in the idea that my 'memories are inaccessible to me'.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to connect fear to the idea that 'my memories are inaccessible to me' and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my own fear.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create myself as the experience of my memories being inaccessible within and as the energetic experience of my mind, and then to react to this experience of me as me with the resistance of giving-up.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that resistance is a program that activates within the mind when the mind perceives itself as being 'threatened', and within this experience of resistance, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that this resistance is real and therefore that it is 'me' who is failing and that it is 'me' who cannot do this.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, understand, and consider that the resistance that I am experiencing as the point of wanting to give up when investigating my memories is because memories is one of the primary ways in which the mind is controlling me and that my mind is threatened when its memories are investigated and then throws-up resistance to keep its power and control over me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear 'myself and what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become'.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect fear itself, to 'myself and what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become', and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my own fear.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that resistance is real, outside of the mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see realize, and understand that resistance is a veil that covers and acts as a guard to not let me out and see what is really here, as me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give-in to the energetic emotion of resistance of the mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to chase the positive energy of feelings as a solution to the negative energetic emotion of resistance, rather than remaining here and breathing within and as the stability of my physical body and the breath.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give my directive power to my mind within giving into the resistance of my mind, and within that I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be less than my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to manifest myself as self-doubt, as a result of my giving into the resistance of my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to doubt myself.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that doubt does not exist.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the backchat that 'I cannot do this, and that I don't know what I am doing', and I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react with and self-create the energetic/emotional experience of self-doubt as a result of participating in this backchat.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become 'insecure' about myself and my ability to 'do process' because of my holding onto self-doubt.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to suppress this insecurity and self-doubt and then let it consume me when faced with going into memories, in this case, to the point where I give in to the energetic experience of wanting to give-up – to give-up on myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed this assignment, of going into memories, to 'prove' to me that my self-doubt 'real', and then go into the emotional experience of 'insecurity'.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separation myself from myself within the emotional experience of 'insecurity'.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create myself as 'insecure'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that self-doubt and insecurity do not really exist and that I am sabotaging myself by participating this these energetic/emotional experiences of the mind.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that my experience of insecurity is showing me that I am not giving myself something, that I am not allowing myself to direct myself as who I am as life, and that I am not standing with myself accepting myself as who I am now, as a mind-consciousness system placement.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that insecurity and self-doubt serve no purpose whatsoever.