Day 102 – Some Self-Forgiveness On Desire

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to search for myself outside of myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from 'here' by searching for myself outside of myself.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to believe that I need something more than what is right here.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to participate in this 'nagging feeling' that something is not right, especially when things slow down.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to look for satisfaction and fulfillment outside of myself.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am able to find myself outside of myself, instead of realizing and accepting that I am here.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to follow my desires believing that these desires are who I am and will satisfy this nagging feeling that is a constant experience that I have.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to act on my desires and to believe that it is in my benefit to act on my desires, when actually desires are sexual energy transferred into my mind to distract me from my self.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that desires are merely sexual energy transferred into my mind.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from everything and everyone that exists through participating in my desires for something outside of myself to bring me fulfillment, satisfaction, and a sense of completion.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to see myself as 'less than' / 'inferior' to others in that I need something 'out-there' to bring me something that I apparently am not already.

I forgive myself that I haven't allowed myself to realize that if I desire something, it is because I believe that that which I desire can 'give me' something as though that something is not already who I am.

I forgive myself for not accepting myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to participate in nagging feelings of 'somethings wrong', 'I am not satisfied', 'I am not complete', 'I am not fulfilled', 'I need something more than what is right here' – and to believe that such experiences to be real, to be me and of me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I need to be in a relationship with my partner in order to be complete, fulfilled and satisfied.

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to realize that if I am in a relationship, I am still here and I am still me and nothing has actually changed in relation to 'who I am'.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that I need/require to have a sexual orgasmic experience in order for me to be complete, fulfilled, and satisfied with myself.

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to realize that an orgasmic experience only lasts for a moment and then I am back to being with myself and that 'who I am' has not actually changed; therefore, the orgasmic experience did not actually complete, fulfill or satisfy me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from my partner through accepting and allowing myself to define my sexual fulfillment within my partner, outside and separate from myself.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from my partner through accepting and allowing myself to define my manhood/sense of completion/coolness/sense of superiority within my partner, outside and separate from myself.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from money through accepting and allowing myself to define my success and sense of accomplishment within money, outside and separate from myself.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from chess, and piano, and other hobbies through accepting and allowed myself to define my sense of gratification and satisfaction within these things, outside and separate from myself.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from food, and going out to restaurants to eat good food, through accepting and allowing myself to define my sense of gratification and satisfaction within eating, outside and separate from myself.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from right 'here' by never being satisfied with just being here because I have defined being right here as boring and fulfilling, separate from myself.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from that word satisfaction by defining myself as satisfied only when I do something 'out there' that brings me a 'positive' energetic experience of myself.