I realize that accept that who I am is
'here' and that I am equal and one to all that is here through my
breathing, and thus I commit myself to breathing naturally, being
'here' as self-presence and self-awareness within and as everything
that I touch.
I forgive myself that I have not
allowed myself to realize and accept everything outside of self as
within self already, and therefore there is no need to 'go there' and
'do that' in order to bring me something or some experience that I
already am and have.
Thus, I commit myself to speak self
forgiveness in the moment that I have desires to be anywhere but
here, and breathe and realize my self-presence and self-awareness
'here' within the application of breathing and stopping my mind.
I forgive myself that I have not
allowed myself to realize and understand that the nagging feeling
that 'something is not right' and 'I need something more than what is
right here' is of the mind, and that participating in these thoughts
leads me into/creates manifests an experience of boredom and
restlessness, that I then define as 'boredom' within the statement 'I
am bored' which then leads me into desires to fill myself with
something 'out there' that can alleviate this 'boredom', all of which
is of the mind and the energy of thoughts and emotions which I alone
create as my experience of myself and of which takes me into the mind
separate from what is actually 'here'.
And thus,
I commit myself to taking my directive
power back by speaking self-forgiveness in the moment that I have any
backchat that 'I need something more than what is here' or an
emotional experience of boredom or restlessness because I see,
realize, and understand that it is not really what is 'here' and that
this experience is of the mind.
I commit myself to, instead of going
into the mind as a solution for this experience of needing something
more than what is here, breathing deeply at first, and then naturally
so as to lead myself back into the breath and stop the mind and then
focus my attention on what is here, how things feel, how my body
feels, until the energy of this pattern subsides and I can remain
here stable in need of no-thing.
I forgive myself that I have accepted
and allowed myself to believe that I need something to fill me or
fulfill me, and that I have been living a life of desire to have the
ultimate experience so that I can feel fulfilled – and within that
I forgive myself that I have been living for an energetic experience
that never can really fulfill me or complete me because the energy of
the experience always subsides and then I am left with nothing – I
am left with the negative energy experience of nagging and wanting
something more.
And thus I commit myself to stopping
this cycle of self-abuse within chasing the positive energy and
running from the negative energy of and created by the mind and my
participation in my mind, like a dog chasing his tail – I stop, I
breathe, and I realize that I am here already in need of nothing to
satisfy me, to complete me, or to fulfill me.
I realize that boredom does not exist.
I realize that restlessness does not
exist.
I realize that the need to be or do
anything to make me feel better about my experience of myself is of
the mind and that by chasing this I am giving my power away to the
mind, so that I can chase energy and the experience thereof, of which
leaves me with nothing. So, I stop.
I realize that by chasing a positive
experience of energy that I then give my directive power away and
thus loose time to do things that are the most self-responsible,
which then leads to outburst of anger as a result of the compounded
energy/emotions of feeling guilty for wasting my time. And within
this I realize that by chasing the positive and running from the
negative, I am being self-dishonest in every-way, which leads to more
problems within and as the mind, and emotions and feelings.
I realize, that I am here, already in
need of nothing.
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