JTL Day 89 – Be 'Here' With the Food

I eat too fast. My partner is constantly reminding me to slow down. I have a lot of gas, I fart a lot LOL. I suppose this is all that partially chewed food I swallow digesting in my colon. That's got to be hard on my body. My step-brother, years ago, used to tell me that I ate like a shark, where my eyes would roll back into my head as I took a bite. LOL. I laugh thinking back on this.

When I pay attention, I can see that I am in my head when I eat. I am either thinking of the next bite, or thinking of something else completely. I also feel rushed. I am not breathing too much.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not be 'here' with and as my food when I eat.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to focus on the next bite of food so much that I wind-up rushing the bite that I am on just to get done with it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place value in the experience of the beginning of the bite, that initial experience of first biting into my food, the flavors, the textures all bursting into my mouth, and then to see the rest of the chewing experience as less exciting.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to swallow my food before it is completely chewed as a result of not 'here' in the breath while chewing my food.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to swallow my food before it is completely chewed because I desire to experience the next bite and am just trying to get through the current one.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to abuse my body by not being 'here' with my food and chewing it until completion before swallowing.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be in my mind thinking of the next bite or something else completely when chewing my food.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to form a habit of swallowing my food before it is completely chewed.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place value in the initial bite experience and focus my attention on only that part of the eating process; and within that, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself participate in the energy of the emotional experience of impatience while chewing.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from my food, as me, by desiring to always experience just that initial bite reaction of satisfaction and pleasure and then focus on only that by waiting with anticipation for the next initial bite experience, while rushing through rest of the chewing process.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into my mind by thinking of the future or other things while chewing my food.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from my food and my body by going into my mind while eating and placing greater value in the initial bit experience, and then going into the desire to only experience that part of the eating process while rushing and not paying attention to the rest of the eating process.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not 'hear' my body telling me that I am eating too fast with the chronic gas that I have.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to remain 'here' in the breath while chewing my food from the beginning of the bite all the way through, experiencing the entire bite in equality and oneness.

When and as I see myself just wanting to get to the next bite or going into the mind while chewing my food, I stop and I breathe – I bring myself back here to being with this bite so that I can be here with and as my food while I chew it until completion before swallowing. I do not accept and allow myself to separate myself from my food and my body by placing greater value within some parts of the eating process and then abusing my body by not chewing my food completely.

And thus,

I commit myself to being here with and as my food while chewing every bite

I commit myself to stopping judgments about the chewing process and simply remaining here in the breath from start to finish while eating.

I commit myself to experiencing the entire eating process equally by breathing and remaining here with my food while I chew it all the way through.