JTL Day 90 – More on Boredom

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to do something more than what is right 'here' before me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make judgments about what I am doing.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I need to do something more exciting than what I am currently doing.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live for the 'excitement' of the next moment rather than remaining 'here' within and as the breath in each moment, stable.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to imagine an activity that would be more exciting and then compare that to what I am doing now, and within that define what I am doing now as 'boring'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to compare different activities to each other and judge them as either fun/exciting or boring.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live in the polarity of boring and exciting, instead of remaining 'here' in the breath in every moment.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be directed by the energy of the emotion of boredom and the desire to go into the energy of the feeling excitement/fun.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the emotion/negative energy of boredom to when things slow down.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the idea that I am bored when and as my responsibilities and activities slow down and come to an end.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect fear to having nothing or very little to do.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect fear to the idea of being bored.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to start seeking things to do that are more exciting when and as what I am currently doing comes to an end.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge/define/label doing 'nothing' as boring and then within this I forgive myself for looking for more exciting things to do so that I do not have to feel this boredom when things slow down.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to waste time by participating in the polarity construct of boredom and excitement.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge/define/label any activity as boring or exciting, and within that I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to simply remaining 'here' within the breath in each moment doing what is practical within the point of taking self-responsibility to take care of myself within this system and re-align myself within the application of stopping my mind so that I am always doing what is best for all.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that all activities are just activities, it is the mind that labels and defines what one is doing thereby separating one from all that is here as self.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to waste time by only participating in activities that are within the self-definition of exciting and fun, instead of remaining 'here' equal and one with what I am doing as myself, in the breath, directing self to be doing what is best for all in every moment.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge the activities within the polarity of fun/exciting and boring, throughout my day, and then to react with the emotion of boredom or the feeling of excitement/satisfaction. And within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be directed by my mind and the energy experience of my mind, rather than to be directed by me as self-awareness within and as the breath, in every moment.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that every moment and activity is equal and that it is the mind that makes judgments of good/bad, positive/negative, right/wrong, fun/boring- when all that in-fact exists is the outflow of consequence of what one participates in, which is in fact a physical reality.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to simply remain here within and as the breath as my directive awareness of me in every breath.

When and as I see myself going judging what I am doing as boring and then reacting with the feeling of boredom and the desire to do something more that what is here before me, I stop and I breath. I do not accept allow myself to make judgments of the activities that I participate in because I see, realize, and understand that these judgments are of the mind and are not in fact real.

And thus, I commit myself to remaining 'here' within and as the breath throughout my day stopping the judgments and feelings that come up of 'I am bored' and instead breathing through them until I am clear, and then directing myself to complete the tasks that I have before me within and as the breath.